Two nights ago, for the first time ever, I prayed to something different.
I poured my heart out and asked for wisdom and solace from a God that is not affiliated with any religion that I’m aware of, but from a God of my understanding. A God that I believe exists but is nothing like I thought.
This is a personal journey. And on this voyage, I will not accept traditional, Christian based ideas regarding my God. I will see this entity as the creator and guide of MY existence. I will believe that this God is different for everyone, just as we all differ from one another. I will not believe that this God will send me to a pit of eternal damnation or a paradise paved with gold and adorned with emeralds. I will believe that what occurs after death is as much of a mystery as where I was before life on earth.
Because as crazy as this sounds and is for me to say, I actually felt peace, comfort, and an other-worldly presence after I was finished…for the first in a long time. And I believe that’s reason enough.